2005-09-28 - 9:08 a.m.
i'm often puzzeled by your obvious contradictions.
pay me some attention, just don't speak to me.
i'm gonna give you my energy, but don't give me yours.
i'mma invite you somewhere i don't want you to be, so i can see you there and pretend you're not.
it's much harder and takes much more energy to hold a grudge than it does to let it go.
why bog yourself down with all these decisions and awkward scenarios when you could just make the decision to be an adult? be mature? be a human and recognize the humanity of others?
i'm telling you, you spent waaaay more time and energy not liking me than you ever spent on me when we were cool.
the saddest part of this whole game you're playing, is you're playing by yourself. i have long released you into the atmosphere. i have acknowledged your fears and insecurities as well as your strengths and talents. i've balanced them out in my head and decided to release you with love. so that is all i have for you.
sorry i cannot play this game of tit for tat with you. but i have things to do.
i wish you much success.
j
